Insecure
Insecurities are something that I have dealt with throughout most of my life. I'd like to think most of us have them; some more than others. Maybe I like to think that so I won't feel bad about having them myself. When I was a kid/teen they were probably at their worst. I think the things I didn't like about myself outweighed the few that I did. My insecurities were typical teenager stuff I guess. Weight being one of my biggest concerns. I remember my obsession with weight got so bad at one point that I began to starve myself. My mom had to supervise my meals. If I wanted to go out I had to eat at least half of whatever she put on my plate. I think that period really did a number on my body. I started getting black outs and migraines. Neither went away. My black outs are very sporadic for the most part now but my migraines are frequent. I look back at pictures and wonder what the hell was I thinking. I wasn't the hideous beast I thought I was. I always pray and hope