Sandoogans' Log

Being a mom is hard. Not hard due to my child, hard because everything cuts me deep when it comes to kids. Before I remember feeling that way when it came to animals. If I was watching a movie where a dog is hurt or missing, that would be the only thing on my mind until they brought him up. I still get like that with doggies but with kids its so different. Anytime I watch a show or movie and something happens to the mother or kids, it totally devastates. Even after its over the image still lingers in my head. Sometimes I'll even go and give Samantha a hug or a kiss. It's getting to the point where I just rather not watch certain things because I know I won't be able to handle it. I feel like a total wuss now. Total weak sauce!

Last night I came home to a sleeping Sam on our couch. It was the first time she's done this. She's usually very particular about where she falls asleep and the couch is not on the top of her list. Her babysitter informed me she had refused to go in her crib or anywhere other than her arms. Sam's been under the weather lately and putting her to bed has been a challenge. Seeing this moment after work was just what I needed to end my day on a  pleasant note. I might be a typical mom I suppose but I just love the little scene. It looks like she fell asleep on our couch waiting for Santa to come. Again, its moments like this that I have found my born again love for Christmas. Kids make everything great.