For You I Bleed Myself Dry

One of my favorite pregnancy stories ( I don't have too many of those unfortunately) was when I was in my second trimester. I think it was my second. When I was pregnant with Sam I would listen to certain songs a lot. This was probably the main one. I would play it on my tummy, I would sing it in the shower, I would bump it in my car, just play it whenever I could. I wanted her to know this song. This was my song to my baby. This was my song to Sam. As I type this my eyes are already beginning to water. This song pretty much summed up my feelings for my little gal.

It was a hot summer day and as usual, I hadn't slept all night. I had trouble sleeping and was grateful whenever I managed to catch a nap here and there. I was lying in bed feeling very relaxed. I could feel myself start to doze off and voila, Sam decides she wants to wake up and kick that crap out of me. I could feel her moving around like the hyper child that she is. I was not about to have it. I started humming the song "Yellow" in hopes that it would calm her down. It did. As soon as I started humming the first verse I could feel her start to slow down. It felt like she was stopping to see where the sound was coming from. I kept humming the song and I could feel the movements get slower and slower to the point where they completely stopped. I had managed to put her to sleep. The feeling I felt was indescribable. It was just such a beautiful moment. Very hard to describe. I hugged my tummy, said I love you and fell asleep with a big smile. We had bonded.

I try to play the song for Sam today and she usually doesn't want to hear it. Sometimes she'll cry or just say "otro, otro" I hope I didn't over do it. However, the other day when we driving home from her grandparents house I started playing the song for her. I was waiting and waiting for her to complain, not a peep. When we were at a red light I turned around and see she had fell asleep. It made me smile and instantly brought me back to that hot summer day.