Sandoogans' Log

Letting go is possibly one of the things I struggle with the most. Forgiving is easy but forgetting, oh, that is a way different story. I don't know if this something that most people struggle with or, if I stand alone with my feelings. I just know I hate feeling this way. I hate the lingering feeling that hides in the background waiting to come out at the most inopportune time. I hate feeling that I'm totally over something and then BAM! Here comes the rain again. I hate that crap! I wish I could just let things go. I don't know if this is a sign of immaturity or maybe the disbelief that someone could hurt me as much as they did. Either way, if I care about a person enough to forgive them, I should care enough to forget what happen. Easier said than done, right? Maybe one day it won't be so complex and I will actually let bygones be bygones. Here's to hoping.

This is currently one of my top 5 favorite songs at the moment. Not just because of the name Tennessee (that's what I call my lovey) but, because it truly is a beautiful little melody. I heard it on my drive to work and it instantly made me feel all gooey and perty inside. I'm hoping to hear more from this little duo. They have total potential of being one of my faves. They probably already are.

This year Mr.Andrade turned the big 3-0. Being the hard worker that he is, he worked on his freaking birthday! I tried to plan something big and extravagant since he was turning 30 but, no dice. Mr. Andrade is a mellow dude when it comes to birthdays so, I had to cave and go with his wishes. Not totally might I add hehehe. The night started with a nice little romantic dinner for two at Frida's in Beverly Hills. The place is very small and very cozy. We enjoyed our meals and service. He had Carnitas and I had Enchiladas Tapatio. To drink I had a Chamoy Margararita and he had a Jack and Coke. Everyone was very friendly and the atmosphere was very low key. Guaranteed we will hit up that spot again. After dinner we went off to meet up with family and friends at a cool little spot called Down & Out. I instantly loved it! Their decor consisted of celebrity mug shots and pin up pictures. Mr. Andrade seemed to like it also, which is what mattered since we were there for him. It w...

This might be way too much information to blog about but, I figured there might be some women considering birth control options. One of my favorite classes in my life long career as a college student has been Human Sexuality. I found that class totally informative on so many levels. My teacher was fantastic and ridiculously liberal. I absolutely loved her. Many things stand out from that class. The thing I recall the most was her topic on birth control. She said she had tried them all! I sure as heck believed her. She always said birth controls pills were the worst you could take due to all the hormones. If I remember correctly she said that was probably the one with the most hormones. Don't quote me on that though, its been awhile. She suggested a few others but I think some of them are discontinued by now. The birth control method she loved and emphasized on the most was the IUD. She said it had no hormones and you didn't have to worry about taking a pill, getting a shot, w...

Today while I was on my last break my friend and I were discussing tattoos. I love them! I think they're pretty bad arse. I don't know why or where my fascination with ink started, just know it's there. What's funny is that I'm not a fan of piercings. The thought of having holes in my face doesn't appeal to me. No offense to those who have piercings, just not my cup of tea. Anyway, my friend and I were talking about what plans we have for future tattoos. She's prego right now and getting a tattoo is out of the question. I on the other hand need to save my pennies, cans and plastics in order to save money for a tat. I have plenty of ideas and after long deliberation, I finally know what I want! Well, I should say I'm certain about a few. I want to get something to represent my parents and daughter but can't seem to decide on what. I'm not really into the whole portrait tats. They look really sweet when done well but just not my thing. I also need...

Brit pop, how I miss thee. I remember in high school staying up late at night to listen to Rodney on the Roq. That was the only way I could get my brit pop fix. It usually wouldn't get regular air play. Watching this video instantly takes me back to when I was 16 driving around in my friend's mom's mini van. We'd go all over the place in that thing. She would always come up with all kinds of excuses so her mom would lend her the van. Sometimes she wouldn't ask she'd just take it. We always had our brit pop blaring on the radio thinking we were super cool. Awe, to be a know it all teen.

Lately I've found myself getting frustrated at work. I go through phases where I like my job, I hate my job or I'm bored with my job. I'm currently going through the frustrated/bored at work phase. Frustrated is a new one. I don't think I've ever felt so frustrated at work till now. I think I feel frustrated because there is a lot I want to do but have the worst work hours ever! I go in to work too late in the morning to do anything before and get off too late in the evening to do anything after. I'm also frustrated because I know what I want to do with my life and again work stops me. This might seem like an excuse (and maybe it is) but at this time I don't have the option of quitting. I feel stuck and it's such a terrible feeling. I want to go to school and get a degree so I can be a counselor. I also want to go to cosmetology school to be a make up artist. My heart is more in the make up field rather than counseling but, you always need a plan b. Do...